I have never thought about the dark as an adventure.
Rather, separation, stillness, abandonment and depression.
I have never asked God to let me experience the dark.
Rather, begged him to bring light to my closed eyes out of self-pity and fear.
It has never occurred to me, until recently, that God created both light and DARKNESS. Day and NIGHT. And as he leads me, he chooses to lead me through the darkness or through the day.
When I look forward to this year, it is pitch black. I can see nothing. I am reminded of a verse my husband shared with me in the early part of this year:
Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light,
trust in the name of the LORD and rely on their God.
I do not know what this year holds. I cannot see into the future.
I will not try to make a way for my family or myself on my own. I will not spend all year trying to find a light or a reason for why it is dark in the first place.
I will let go and follow.
I will close my complaining mouth, and follow.
I will stop straining my eyes to see and enjoy the adventure of following.
I will rely on my God; his provision, his direction, his timing and his faithfulness.
My word for 2011 is Following.